not feeling girly at all
i am just not in the mood. i have a cold which i can't seem to shake off and i just don't have the desire to dress. at the moment, i just do not seem to be into been a girl. i still read my favourite websites and blogs. i am still masturbating like a girl, but i just don't have the will to dress etc.
maybe its just the weather?
or my cold?
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
second masturbation.....
following on from yesterdays first orgasm of the year, i looked forward to having another go.
this time i decided to use a little KY jelly as a lubricant on my sweet spot, and only use the small vibrator.
i laid back on the bed, legs spread, with thoughts of a big man taking me. i gently began to use the vibrator, with a minimum of movement. what i did notice was that at times i would be hitting the spot perfectly and it was wonderful, but then the vibrator must have just slipped off a bit and although pleasurable, the build up to an orgasm was not happening as it was when i was hitting the spot.
i did find this slightly frustrating, as i was feeling myself building to an orgasm, and then without seemingly doing anything different, my build up was decreasing.
however i did eventually get there, but it was different to last time and pleasurable in another way. just prior to the orgasm my head a shoulders all felt different and as i reached orgasm, both of my hands started to buzz like the vibrator (felt a bit woolly too) and i had a temporary loss of feeling in them (because they were buzzing so much - a bit like when you sit on your hands for a few minutes and then get up) my cock was obviously also buzzing (due to the vibrator). i did not actually feel myself cumming and i had to sit up to see if i had actually cum!!
i could definately get used to this type of orgasm...!!!
following on from yesterdays first orgasm of the year, i looked forward to having another go.
this time i decided to use a little KY jelly as a lubricant on my sweet spot, and only use the small vibrator.
i laid back on the bed, legs spread, with thoughts of a big man taking me. i gently began to use the vibrator, with a minimum of movement. what i did notice was that at times i would be hitting the spot perfectly and it was wonderful, but then the vibrator must have just slipped off a bit and although pleasurable, the build up to an orgasm was not happening as it was when i was hitting the spot.
i did find this slightly frustrating, as i was feeling myself building to an orgasm, and then without seemingly doing anything different, my build up was decreasing.
however i did eventually get there, but it was different to last time and pleasurable in another way. just prior to the orgasm my head a shoulders all felt different and as i reached orgasm, both of my hands started to buzz like the vibrator (felt a bit woolly too) and i had a temporary loss of feeling in them (because they were buzzing so much - a bit like when you sit on your hands for a few minutes and then get up) my cock was obviously also buzzing (due to the vibrator). i did not actually feel myself cumming and i had to sit up to see if i had actually cum!!
i could definately get used to this type of orgasm...!!!
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
First Masturbation of the year........
yesterday, i had my first masturbation of the year, and whilst i did not strictly follow my rules, i believe i did something that you would all approve of.
whilst sorting out some of my girly stuff, i found a small vibrator, similar to a maglite torch in size, taking two AAA batteries. so instead of rubbing my cock with my little finger, i lubed up by using some saliva (which i had to keep topping up) and then placed the tip of the vibrator on the sensitive bit below my cock head.
i was already hard after thinking about something which i will hopefully blog about in the next couple of weeks or so. i did have to move the vibrator slightly to increase the sensations, but it was very slight. the orgasm did build up slowly, and was not "earth shattering" as i came, although it was very pleasurable. the cum did a bit of a spurt, but nothing like it did to when i used to jerk like a man.
overall, satisfying, and something that i could (and will) get used to, but nowhere near as good as the anal orgasm i had (see earlier posts).
yesterday, i had my first masturbation of the year, and whilst i did not strictly follow my rules, i believe i did something that you would all approve of.
whilst sorting out some of my girly stuff, i found a small vibrator, similar to a maglite torch in size, taking two AAA batteries. so instead of rubbing my cock with my little finger, i lubed up by using some saliva (which i had to keep topping up) and then placed the tip of the vibrator on the sensitive bit below my cock head.
i was already hard after thinking about something which i will hopefully blog about in the next couple of weeks or so. i did have to move the vibrator slightly to increase the sensations, but it was very slight. the orgasm did build up slowly, and was not "earth shattering" as i came, although it was very pleasurable. the cum did a bit of a spurt, but nothing like it did to when i used to jerk like a man.
overall, satisfying, and something that i could (and will) get used to, but nowhere near as good as the anal orgasm i had (see earlier posts).
Thursday, January 06, 2011
A new year, a new sissy??
i am not one for making new year resolutions, but i thought a bit more about it this year.
i have decided that in order to improve my sissyness i will do my best to stick to the following "training notes"
1) when masturbating, i will only do it as a girl as stated in a previous post. i will not grab my cock and beat my hand up and down wildly. .
the goal of this is to be as close to a female as possible. this should also cut out any "quickies" that i intend to have.
my only exception to this is when doing a milovana tease, but that tease mut be a training tease to make me more of a sissy.
2) i will study make up more. i can do some basic make up, but i want to be more advanced. i want to study colours, styles, application techniques etc.
i intend to watch and study all of the Lauren Luke videos on youtube along with her other tips.
to start this, i bought myself a nintendo ds for christmas. there are some make-up games on there.
3) when playing games i will do my best to play girly games. i have already bought a few of the imagine titles for the ds, along with some fashion and makeover games. i hope to spend more time playing girly games than any other type.
4) i will also try to wear a bra to work more often.
5) i will try to watch more "training videos" such as the ones at adulthypnotic wishes and others that subliminally train you to act and think like a girl.
i am not one for making new year resolutions, but i thought a bit more about it this year.
i have decided that in order to improve my sissyness i will do my best to stick to the following "training notes"
1) when masturbating, i will only do it as a girl as stated in a previous post. i will not grab my cock and beat my hand up and down wildly. .
the goal of this is to be as close to a female as possible. this should also cut out any "quickies" that i intend to have.
my only exception to this is when doing a milovana tease, but that tease mut be a training tease to make me more of a sissy.
2) i will study make up more. i can do some basic make up, but i want to be more advanced. i want to study colours, styles, application techniques etc.
i intend to watch and study all of the Lauren Luke videos on youtube along with her other tips.
to start this, i bought myself a nintendo ds for christmas. there are some make-up games on there.
3) when playing games i will do my best to play girly games. i have already bought a few of the imagine titles for the ds, along with some fashion and makeover games. i hope to spend more time playing girly games than any other type.
4) i will also try to wear a bra to work more often.
5) i will try to watch more "training videos" such as the ones at adulthypnotic wishes and others that subliminally train you to act and think like a girl.
