caps and caps

just found this when looking at some old posts that i had not made.  it is part of a series that i intend to continue when i get round to it.  i have since left that compnay, but the post still stands!!!

No 3 The Sceretary

i work as a male executive in an office.  currently there is only one female employed in the company and she works with me as the only two people on the ground floor.  due to the constraints of the credit crunch etc we had to let 2 other females go who worked with me, and the remaining one moved from upstairs, down to be with me.



the other two females i worked with were fantastic.  one was a financial controller, about 42 yr old, always dressed in business attire.  the other was a perky 21 yr old, dressed in young fashion.  us 3 hit it off like wild fire and i had no problems telling them that i plucked my eyebrows, shaved my chest/underarms, that i was wearing tights because it was cold (as if that was the only reason!!) etc etc.  we were like 3 girls together and i was so upset when it changed.

anyway, onto my fantasy....

the look of a woman in a business suit, fitted pencil skirt, tight blouse, heels makes me go weak.  i also feel the same when i am dressed like that.  it instills some feminine confidence in me to dress this was, and my adventures out have generally been wearing a short black pencil skirt and blouse.

i think it must be the look of near perfection, the amount of time taken to achieve the look, me as  a sissy knowing that being a secretary and dressing that way takes a lot of time in a morning, time that i wish i was spending before grabbing a coffee on the go, running some errands for my boss, before some dictation....


secretarys are not paid enough, if i was a secretary then i would demand that i was allowed to suck off the boss and at least one other worker everday.

What would a real man say....????

on seeing a model in her panties and bra ?

my first thought was cute bra and panties

seeing a picture of a girl bent over with only a thong covering her pussy / ass?

my first thought was nice panties.

on seeing a girl with a tight body and short skirt ?

my first thought was nice legs, i wish mine looked like that.

on seeing a girl with a slender but curvy body ?

my first thought was that i bet she could keep her boyfriend happy with a body like that.

on seeing a model in a tight fitting pencil ?

my first thought was i wonder how i would look in that

on seeing a skintight minidress on a model ?

my first thought was i wished i looked that good and could wear that

on seeing a bright red wrap dress with a fully flared skirt on a model ?

my first thought is where can i get one of those

on seeing a girl with hot brown smokey eyes ?

my first thought was nice make up, how did she do that

All of these have happened to me in the past week.  i wonder if i am a real man?

 desktop wallpaper

as i have already said, i have started a new job, and i am starting to settle in.

what i do want to know form you girls (yes, i am asking for a bit of interaction) is what do you have as your desktop wallpaper, and what do you think is suitable for a sissy / girl in training like me.

i can't obviously have a big cock or anyone naked looking at me (my back is to the window), and sometimes (maybe once every 2 weeks) someone shows me something on the computer, so they will see the desktop.

has anyone any ideas / suggestions?

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Hovering, a new experience.

having commited to been as much as a girl as possible, i am trying to sit to pee as much as possible.  i cannot see any situations except when out with my mates that i cannot do this, so that is my commitment.

i went to the toilets in asda (which are usually quite clean), into the only vacant cubicle, and all i can say is that the toilet was dirty and unflushed.  i was tempted to stand to pee, but wearing a thong reminded me that girls often have this problem, so after thinking "what would a girl do?" i decided to hover.

i was quite desperate to go, a little horny and having never peed like this, it was quite difficult.  my legs were shaking and tired by the time i had finished.

my legs ached as i walked out, but i was proud of myself!!!

Driving in a dress (well skirt actually...)

i had to go visist a site today and as i had all of my girly things in the car with me i thought i would drive en femme.  i left the office dressed as a male (a male in a thong!!), then went to a local industrial estate which was a bit quieter so i could get changed in the car.

i took off my shirt and put on my bra and then my shirt as fast as possible so no-one could see me.  i then took off my shoes and socks and off came my trousers. i wiggled my butt into my 21" long black pencil skirt and managed to fasten it and zip it up whilst in the drivers seat.

my breast forms were dropped into my bra, then after a quick brush, on went my wig, earings and lipstick.

i then put on my 4" heels and got out of the car, locking all of my male clothes in the boot (trunk for you usa sissys!)

i am not sure if anyone saw me, but i straightened my skirt, and hopped back into the drivers seat and drove off.  it was very hard driving in heels and i regretted not having some flats for driving, then to change into heels later.

it was a fun, but ultimately uneventful drive for the next 90 minutes.  i tried to make eye contact with people and other drivers, but i don't think anyone noticed.  i was hoping to get stuck in a traffic jam where a horny trucker could see my legs etc etc, but it wasn't to be.

my destination was an asda store (now owned by walmart so i think everyone know what to expect when i got there).  i drove into the car park and towards the far corner of the car park.  i parked up, and someone parked up about 2 spots away at either side!!  after waiting for them to go, i was about to get out when a landscape gardener and his mates in his little pickup drove very slowly past me, definately looking for me.  i think they must have seen me when i drove in.  they then drove up the car park a bit and parked up in a strange location (i.e. not in a marked bay) facing my car.  i panicked a little and drove to another location which was busier. (ok i know some of you will be thinking about fantasies here, me with 3 men, but it wasn't really like that)

i waited for any people to pass by, which seemed an age in a busy supermarket.  i then got out of the car and went to the boot to get my male clothes.  i think the trolley guy saw me, but he didn't do/say anything.

after getting changed back, i put my (proper) clothes back in the boot.  whilst i was getting changed the landscapers drove past again. i am sure they wanted to look at me!!

i was still in a girly buzz so i went and bought some facial wipes to remove my make-up (this was why i only wore lipstick as i couldn't remove it - but can now), some matt clear nail polish and some eyelash curlers - never had a pair so this is something new to me.

all in all an uneventful trip, but satisfying to get back in a skirt for a while.

Building site workwear

expressing my sissy side on a building site is not easy and my career choices are limited, however i have found these below....

on the building site i would love to wear this

or even clothes like these

i am sure that they would drive my co-workers wild

especially when i bring them a drink

or entertain them at lunch time

although my dream job on a building site would be the cute secretary, who dresses to please the boys, gets whistled at and then relieves the stress of the managers as and when they need it.......

i suppose there are still plenty of career options left for me....

Ok girls, how many of you have actually sissified your computer?


is what you are looking at now a mans computers or a girls computer?

you know what i mean.......

so how can you be without this

http://www.keyboardforblondes.com/

a pink keyboard
the ultimate girly accessory for your pc.

a change of mind

after a bit of deliberation, i have decided that i don't want this blog to become just another caption blog (nothing wrong with that), as i started it to relay my feelings / experiences and share some of the files i have on my computer.

i ahve been writing some captions for hte past few days, an i have enjoyed it, so i have decided to add another blog - susans captions (not a really catchy title i know), and put all of the captions in there.

i noticed that when i posted captions, my visitor numbers went up, so it is something that you like to see, but i don't want my other posts to get lost in the middle of hundreds of caps.

stealing an idea from one of my favourite blogs - my life OMG - http://tismylifeomg.blogspot.com/
i intend to add some ideas of what i would be doing / like to be doing if i was living with a man or been trained by a master.  hopefully you will like what i have to say and we can feed other ideas off each other.

my other blog is at http://susanscaptions.blogspot.com/ there will be more content as i get it posted / sorted.

i also have some pictures of myself to post, so all of those will be here.

regards
susan

my new job and this blog

i have had this blog too long to let it wither and die, and i will not be deleting it whatever happens, although blogger may delete it for me!!

i have spent the past few weeks just doing some captions, and i have enjoyed it, but i don't want this blog to become just a caption blog.  it started as a blog of my feelings, along with somewhere to post and share the sissy files i had collected.  however the next posts (several of them) will be captions.  my stats go up when i post captions, so i know they are popular, but this is my blog about me.

so i haven't disappeared totally, and please keep checking back

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well nearly 4 weeks into my new job, and i am finally beginning to settle in a little.  it has been hard up until now, especially since i haven't had time to dress or anything like that.  however work is quiet, and i am now spending more and more time on the computer at work looking at the internet.

i have also figured a way of making some time to dress, so hopefully i will get my chance in a week or so.

i have some photos of me in some new clothes so i may post them when i get time inbetween the captions


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in the meantime - enjoy the captions, i hope they are not too "samey" for you

love susan
xx

more captions

A quick update....

i am still about, but i do not have much time due to me starting a new job.

i do not have the freedom i used to have to find time to dress (or blog), but iam working on getting to know the people i work with so i can then create some time for myself.

the new office is very strict and there is no team spirit or "fun" at work.  everyone is watching their own backs.  but it does pay the bills so i will stick it out for now.

i have a few pictures to post and some captions.  i will post them when i find the time.

so its not farewell, just a small adious for now

a little shopping trip.

having been bored a little i decided i needed to buy myself some new clothes to cheer me up.  i had decided to go to a local matalan (discount) clothes store and buy a bandeau dress (never had one before) and some white lacey panties.

i had never been shopping for clothes in this store, and i was a little apprehensive, so i decided to drab down and not go in too obvious.  the store is very close to home, so i was nervous and dressed accordingly.  i went wearing some black panties and a black bra filled with my silicone breast forms.  on top of this i wore a grey hoodie.  my breasts were noticable if you looked closely.  i also wore some pink lipgloss.

the shop was fairly quiet and i went a bit mad and bought the following...

a bandeau dress

a pink sundress (this is lovely and i would highly recommend it + it was only £5)

some new thongs (in black and white)

a new "smart" skirt that goes to below the knee

and a white with black spots blouse with a small belt.  this was to match the skirt, and i look every inch the perfect secretary!!!  (sorry no picture)

i had all of these items in by basket when i joined the queue at the checkout.  there was about 5 people in front of me, and 2 behind me when i got served.  there were 3 people serving, 1 man (about 22) and two women (approx mid 30's).  you guessed it - i had the man.  i did want to have one of the women so i could ask about returns etc, but i didn't feel comfortable asking the man!! - i don't think he would get it!!

i then went and bought some new cosmetics - mascara, eye liners and foundation.

all in all a usual girly shopping trip - total cost £60 - bargain!!!!

i will post some pictures later of me wearing some of the clothes.

even more.....

captions - a few more.

i have done about a dozen or captions and i quite enjoyed it, so i will post them, but it is not my aim to change this into a caption blog

Assignment x report no. 15 - The Final Chapter

dear susan,







thank you for giving this assignment such effort


over these last two weeks! in my opinion, you


went way beyond the call of duty on this one.


it's obvious to me that i set the bar much higher


than i had intended: my rule of thumb is that if


an assignment can't be carried out by a willing


sissy, then the fault lies with the assignment and


not the sissy. for this i humbly apologize.






clearly, orgasm denial is a powerful tool for


sissification; we sissies know that already! so


this assignment might well "work" in the context


of a longer term program of behavior modification


(by "work", i mean it would have the effect of


reinforcing the behavior modification program, not


*necessarily* that one would be able to achieve


orgasm following its rules!). that is, as i see


it, the context of the Sissy Station assignments


on which i modeled this assignment. however,


despite the fact that the tone of the assignment


draws on that context, i was trying to create


something that would be accessible even if one


were not committed to such a program.






more simply stated: i wanted to produce something


achievable; the context and the authoritative tone


were there to add to the fantasy.






susan, thank you also for taking us along as


you experienced this. your "ramblings" have


been most captivating (and at times wrenching),


not to mention instructive and, yes, hilarious! :D






*BIG hugs*


charmane



--- susan rhodes wrote:



> Hi charmane


>


> as the title says i gave it my best shot today.


>


> i couldn't start the day with my early morning


> Rogering, but as luck would have it, i made time for


> an extended lunch (very extended)


>


> when i got home i immediately stripped off and got


> on Roger. i then decided to excite myself up by


> reading some stories on the internet, all the while


> moving my hips on Roger. this seemd to work, so i


> got on the floor and started using Roger with a


> flourish. but to no avail, so back to the pc for


> more sissy therapy (which seemed to be working as i


> bounced on Roger, but i ultimately found out that


> the turn on must have been my boyclit rubbing on the


> chair) but i could not maintain any level of


> excitement.


>


> I was on Roger (and at times was giving it all i


> had) for 40 minutes.


>


> as the time went on i resigned myself to the fact


> that i wasn't going to be able to cum this way - IF


> i could then i would have, believe me i really


> tried.


>


> i even let Bruce have a go, which stretched my


> boypussy and made delicious sounds, but even this


> did not push me over the edge.


>


> I even joined a msn group on malemilking for some


> tips, but afetr reading it was obvious that it MAY


> be possible for some people to cum this way, but the


> vast majority of people used the "stroke and


> release" system - i.e. bringing yourself to the


> edge, then stopping, allowing cum to flow without an


> orgasm.


>


> after the 40 minutes i was sore (i had used about


> a quarter of a tube of lubricant), tired and


> frustrated. i do not think it is meant to be, if it


> was then today would have been the day.


>


> i am sorry that i cannot report to you that i have


> managed to cum this way, but it is not through lack


> of trying. i do not feel guilty that i havn't


> managed it, just a little disappointed.


>


> My work has been suffering, i havn't been sleeping


> well, i have had very little appetite; all i believe


> by my thoughts and efforts to try to complete this.


>


> Today was the day when i turned around and said


> enough is enough ( i have not had a male orgasm for


> over 3 weeks, and i have actually started to feel


> less horny by the day)


>


> i gave in to my desires and pulled myself off,


> slowly at first until i came (a small amount) which


> i then ate.


>


> i then stroked myself to orgasm, (which i have


> frozen) but it was not hte earth shattering orgasm


> you would expect, it was one more of relief.


>


> i think it has done myself good (i would have


> orgasmed on saturday with the wife anyway). i feel


> better, and have got some work done (except for


> typing this marathon letter!!)


>


> i actually want to be with my wife and have sex


> with her, i enjoy looking at photos of attractive


> women and sports.


>


> some of you may say that i am in my post orgasm


> state, but i have left it for 4 hours before writing


> this to see how i really feel. my life seems to be


> back on track already (even though i am wearing


> panties and have my toes and fingernails painted!!)


>


> the last few weeks have been a journey of


> discovery for me, and i have learnt many things


> including -


>


> * i love women


> * it is VERY hard to go without an orgasm


> * my mind changes and drifts away when i go


> without orgasm for so long


> * in a non orgasm state, i cannot operate properly


> as a man and carry out my daily tasks etc


> * i am a crossdresser and i love it - i still love


> to put on a skirt etc,but i do not have any real


> desire to find a real man to make me woman


> * i am glad to get back to walking like a man


> again


> * anal sex is enjoyable, but i believe will not


> lead to me having an orgasm, or sissy orgasm.


> * i enjoy sucking cock all be it artificial


> (especially when there is a treat of cum at the end)


>


>


> all in all i have given this assignment my best


> shot, i have "given up" 2 days early, but believe


> that i have completed it as far as i can (the


> assignment does not say you have to cum this way,


> only that if you do then you can do so as often as


> you want)


>


> i hope that my accounts of this have inspired some


> of you others to try it, and if not i apologise for


> filling up your inboxes with my ramblings.


>


> I would like to say a special thank you to


> charmane who has lead and encouraged me through this


> time - i sincerely wish you all the best with your


> make up assignment, please please please let me know


> how you get on, you may inspire me to try it!!!!!!


>


>


> Love to all


>


> susan