4th August 2011

had a not bad nights sleep, still quite horny but not as bad as last night.  got some dark circles under my eyes though.  may have to buy some makeup to cover them up today.

8.00am checked my email, and YAY! my BF got back to me saying "yes lets meet x"  only 1 kiss though, a girl wants more than that.

he also sent the email at 2.15am this morning, i hope he wasn't with some tramp.

will wait for a hour or so and then send him a get ready for tonight email!!!
feeling dead giddy now.  i wonder what other/real girls felt like before their first time?

9.30am couldn't wait any longer to send my BF the message that i will be there tonight.  sent him my mobile number so he can get in touch.  asked him for his address and confirmation about using a condom for oral sex.

hope he replies soon, but it might be unlikely!

looked at myself in the mirror - i seem to have come out in a few spots, just typical, i want to look my best and now i have spots.  looks like i am going to have to buy some concealer before my date.

enjoy typing the words date and BF. still giddy.  can't get any work done thinking about my date with my BF.

11.15 still no news.  if he really wanted me, wouldn't he have emailed by now??

1.00pm still nothing  :(

2.30pm again still nothing.  at this rate i will be setting off to his house before i know where it is!!  i have stopped recording whenever i check my email, it is too much typing.

2.45 and i notice that my BF has been online as he had logged in on the cottaging site where we met 10 minutes ago.  he had checked out my profile which is good, but still no email.  i quickly sent off a message through the cottaging site to ask him for his address.  maybe he has picked up the email and is going to ring me!!  but nothing yet.

its 3.00 pm now, and in 5 hours time i could have his cock in my mouth or my ass.  but i don't where to find him...

4.30 still nothing and i am heading home.  got to wait until he rings me now.
called on way hoe to get my hair cut, thought it might get hot under the wig tonight.

5.20 almost home when the phone rings.  at last my BF has rung me, on a witheld number :(
the bad news, he has got someone coming over tonight so we can't meet.  but the strange thing was that he then offered to come to mine?  anyway,he asked about the condom for oral sex, and i said i want to the first time, but maybe after that if we become a regular couple, then i may reconsider.  he then asked me if i had done this before, and i answered honestly, no.  i told him i cammitted to getting some action and he was the next person to contact me.  i asked him if it was a problem, and he said no.  he also asked how i was to dress when i arrived.  i told him how ever he wants, but he wants to be discrete, so it would be in male mode and change inside.

after finally talking this through he said he would get back to me within 1/2 hour to see if he could arrange something.  its 15mins on and i still don't know anything.  i am no further on than this morning lol.

well its 3 hours later and i thnk i have been dumped.  he did ask about tomorrow night, but i said no.  maybe if i said yes he would love me again?  feel like eating a lot to make myself happy.
why are men so cruel?
why don't they do what they say they will do?
why can't i get any sex?
*sob sob*

3rd august 2011

after a restless nights sleep trying to figure out why no-one wants me (am i too forward, not forward enough, am i not offering what they want, should i get some bigger boobs? etc) i woke up and checked my emails to no messages, again :(

9.00am work tonight got cancelled so i have decided to take the bull by the horn and contact my PBF to see if he can accomodate me.  i have all of my clothes in the car ready for him.  he is usually online now so i expect an answer by return.

10.00am got to go out for a few hours, no response from my PBF.  i cannot even give my ass away!!!

10.10am Yay!!! got response from my PBF!!! - he says he cannot do tonight.  felt a bit gutted, and i told him that i was very horny and wanted to dress and have sex with him asap.  he says he feels the same way.  just got to get his wife out of the way!!

had a little girly adventure today, but i have posted about that earlier!!

3.00pm had to go out, but got back and decided to email my BF and tell him he can have me tonight if he wants me, but has to let me know by 4.30pm.  sent longish sexy email, i am sure if he gets the email in time, i will be there tonight!!!

4.30pm yes you guessed it - nothing. i will only give him until friday.  if he doesn't get in touch by then, then i must move on.

8.00pm my BF emailed me at 7.30pm saying he had just got my message and he supposed it was too late.  if only he had checked his emails earlier i would be in his arms now.  i am making an extra effort to try to see him tomorrow.  sent him another "what i am going to do to you" email to keep him horny and ask if we are on tomorrow.  if not it will be next tuesday at earliest.  think i will go insane by then.

8.30pm no reply :( i need to know does he want me or not?

off to get shaved best i can just in case...

2nd august 2011

11am - still no news from my boyfriend.  he must have dumped me.  how long do i leave it before i call it a day and move on.  my second admirer has been in touch this morning, he is keen.

my second admirer, now upgraded to PBF (potential boyfriend) is trying to arrange a time when we can meet.  he is married, so i am going to be the other woman.  this excites me, but part of me thinks if he is cheating on her, will he cheat on me??  better save these thoughts until we actually get together.

told my PBF to pencil in 16th august.  this will be the day that susan goes back to school!!!  hope he teaches me a few lessons

been looking on where to put my hands, i have decided that i will put my arms around his neck and draw him into me.  that way i can play with his hair, stroke his neck etc.  if he responds favourably, then i might go onto my tiptoes for him (he is taller than me, even in my 4" heels).  new problem now is what to do if he grabs my ass.  shoudl i let him grope away, or should i act a bit shy to start with and coyly move his hand away.

he knows i am going to put out for him, but i am going insane waiting for him to get in touch.  going to take the initiative and "wink" at him!!

3.30pm i have been checking my email every 20minutes today, and since early this morning, neither my BF or PBF have been in touch.  it sucks been a girl wanting some action.

9.30pm still no-one been in touch.  very fed up now.  off to bed

Monday 1st August 2011

its 10.00pm and i have checked my email every 20 minutes throughout the day.  feeling down again, maybe i pushed my boyfriend too far.  i offered to do almost anything with him, as long as it was safe, but maybe he has had second thoughts.  i am sure i am not too fat, maybe i am too old.  i really did think he could be the one.

why don't men ever respond, are they afraid to say no thanks?

however, whilst i was checking my messages on cottaging, another man has got in touch.  i thought this would be some harmless flirting, so i thought "what the heck" and we flirted for a while.  he wants me to dress as a schoolgirl who has failed a test and needs to get some extra marks from the teacher.  i am loving talking to him, our messages are quite sexy.  he is dead keen to meet me, i think he must be thinking with his "other brain" again.

my new admirer was quite insistant throughout the day.  i have told him that i can't meet him this week, because i have another appointment (boyfriend) although he hasn't been in touch  :(

whilst waiting for my boyfriend, i am getting nervous about kissing him, what should i do with my hands?  i know what to do with my hands when i was predending to be a guy, but now i am a girl, what should i do?  maybe i should look this up.

sunday 31st july 2011
its dinnertime now and i still haven't had a reply.  it looks like he doesn't want me.  i was starting to think about him and referring to him as my boyfriend, but now nothing- i have been dumped before we even met

YAY - checked again at 5.00pm and my boyfriend has got back to me.  he says he likes the photos, especially the ones of me in stockings and suspenders - a typical man, doesn't notice the effort i went to in the other photos, but likes to see me in my underwear the best.  do men only think of one thing?

5.30pm - got another email asking if it was ok if he didn't wear a condom for oral sex, he wants me to swallow it all.  i am not sure about this.

8.00pm - done some research, and you can catch STD's etc from oral sex.  as its my first time i don't want to be worrying about this, i want to enjoy myself!!

decided to send email back to boyfriend telling him i want to see a condom if his cock is going into my mouth.  told him that it is to protect us both.  also told him i will wear stockings and suspenders for him, and that i want him to be in charge.

getting giddy about this now, hope he replies soon.

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Sissy Bucket List

with a little idea stolen from sissy girl lauren blog (http://sissygirllauren.blogspot.com/) i have decided to put a bucket list together for us sissys.

this is a list of everything we should do / aim for before a certain date, in no particular order.

Please feel free to add to it in the comments and i will amend the list accordingly.

1) Be smooth all over
2) Give a messy hand job
3) Suck a real cock
4) Have a man take your virginity
5) wear a butt plug to work
6) wear full lingerie (bra, stockings, suspenders and panties to work)
7) have your make up done by someone else
8) walk out in the dark dressed en femme
9) walk out in daylight dressed en femme
10) suck on a dildo
11) take a dildo in your pussy
12) have an orgasm puely from anal stimulation
13) visit a TV / Gay bar dressed en femme
14) Experience a sissy period, and not just once for several months on the trot.
15) Visit a mistress
16) visit a salon and have your eyebrows waxed
17) Have your finger nails painted / manicure
18) have your toe nails painted / pedicure
19) get a feminine hairstyle / haircut
20) have a professional photo done while dressed.


i am not going to list which and what i have done, i will save that for later and we can all compare then!!

this post is for the list for us all to aspire to, please add to it.

more shopping, but on ebay this time...





following the purchase of my skirt and shoes i received an email regarding a product call "nubra" that could give me a bit of cleavage if worn with the right clothes.  interested, i did some research and found a copy product (to try out) on ebay and i have placed an order.  it will take a few weeks to arrive from hong kong so please be patient, even though i can't wait.

i will let you all know how it gets on, and whether you need to get buying. if it is a success...(maybe i should start selling them and modelling them????)

+ for Jennyuwhen - i can't take a picture in my new skirt as it doesn't fit me!!!!

but i will post some pictures shortly.

some good news, then some bad news, then some good news

ok what am i talking about???

i was working late last night at an asda away from home.  the people i went to see were somewhere in the store, so i thought i would have a look around before contacting them (the store was open 24hrs).

i headed straight for the womens clothing section, and as it was quiet had a good browse about.  after about 10 minutes i walked into the store, then decided to go back and buy myself a skirt i had seen.

The skirt was a black pleasted mini and they had my size - for £9.  i also noticed that they had some flat pumps with a bow on front in my size - £6.  i went and bought them both, using the self-scan checkout.

i wanted the flats so i could dress girly and be able to drive (note - if you have never tried driving in 4" heels, then my advice, for safety reasons, is don't - if you have, then you will know what i mean)  so these flats were ideal.

all good news so far...

went to work, did what i had to do and 1 hour later was on my way home.  i decided to change into my skirt and shoes for the journey home.  the shoes fit perfectly, but (and the bad news) the skirt is too big for me.  i was a bit upset as i couldn't return it because i had just cut off all the tickets so i could wear it!!

after i put my trousers back on, i realised that this was actually good news.  it looks like i have dropped a skirt size.  Yay.

as a side issue, i got called back to the store about 15mins later, and i had a look but they didn't have my (new) size.

caps and caps

just found this when looking at some old posts that i had not made.  it is part of a series that i intend to continue when i get round to it.  i have since left that compnay, but the post still stands!!!

No 3 The Sceretary

i work as a male executive in an office.  currently there is only one female employed in the company and she works with me as the only two people on the ground floor.  due to the constraints of the credit crunch etc we had to let 2 other females go who worked with me, and the remaining one moved from upstairs, down to be with me.



the other two females i worked with were fantastic.  one was a financial controller, about 42 yr old, always dressed in business attire.  the other was a perky 21 yr old, dressed in young fashion.  us 3 hit it off like wild fire and i had no problems telling them that i plucked my eyebrows, shaved my chest/underarms, that i was wearing tights because it was cold (as if that was the only reason!!) etc etc.  we were like 3 girls together and i was so upset when it changed.

anyway, onto my fantasy....

the look of a woman in a business suit, fitted pencil skirt, tight blouse, heels makes me go weak.  i also feel the same when i am dressed like that.  it instills some feminine confidence in me to dress this was, and my adventures out have generally been wearing a short black pencil skirt and blouse.

i think it must be the look of near perfection, the amount of time taken to achieve the look, me as  a sissy knowing that being a secretary and dressing that way takes a lot of time in a morning, time that i wish i was spending before grabbing a coffee on the go, running some errands for my boss, before some dictation....


secretarys are not paid enough, if i was a secretary then i would demand that i was allowed to suck off the boss and at least one other worker everday.

What would a real man say....????

on seeing a model in her panties and bra ?

my first thought was cute bra and panties

seeing a picture of a girl bent over with only a thong covering her pussy / ass?

my first thought was nice panties.

on seeing a girl with a tight body and short skirt ?

my first thought was nice legs, i wish mine looked like that.

on seeing a girl with a slender but curvy body ?

my first thought was that i bet she could keep her boyfriend happy with a body like that.

on seeing a model in a tight fitting pencil ?

my first thought was i wonder how i would look in that

on seeing a skintight minidress on a model ?

my first thought was i wished i looked that good and could wear that

on seeing a bright red wrap dress with a fully flared skirt on a model ?

my first thought is where can i get one of those

on seeing a girl with hot brown smokey eyes ?

my first thought was nice make up, how did she do that

All of these have happened to me in the past week.  i wonder if i am a real man?

 desktop wallpaper

as i have already said, i have started a new job, and i am starting to settle in.

what i do want to know form you girls (yes, i am asking for a bit of interaction) is what do you have as your desktop wallpaper, and what do you think is suitable for a sissy / girl in training like me.

i can't obviously have a big cock or anyone naked looking at me (my back is to the window), and sometimes (maybe once every 2 weeks) someone shows me something on the computer, so they will see the desktop.

has anyone any ideas / suggestions?

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Hovering, a new experience.

having commited to been as much as a girl as possible, i am trying to sit to pee as much as possible.  i cannot see any situations except when out with my mates that i cannot do this, so that is my commitment.

i went to the toilets in asda (which are usually quite clean), into the only vacant cubicle, and all i can say is that the toilet was dirty and unflushed.  i was tempted to stand to pee, but wearing a thong reminded me that girls often have this problem, so after thinking "what would a girl do?" i decided to hover.

i was quite desperate to go, a little horny and having never peed like this, it was quite difficult.  my legs were shaking and tired by the time i had finished.

my legs ached as i walked out, but i was proud of myself!!!

Driving in a dress (well skirt actually...)

i had to go visist a site today and as i had all of my girly things in the car with me i thought i would drive en femme.  i left the office dressed as a male (a male in a thong!!), then went to a local industrial estate which was a bit quieter so i could get changed in the car.

i took off my shirt and put on my bra and then my shirt as fast as possible so no-one could see me.  i then took off my shoes and socks and off came my trousers. i wiggled my butt into my 21" long black pencil skirt and managed to fasten it and zip it up whilst in the drivers seat.

my breast forms were dropped into my bra, then after a quick brush, on went my wig, earings and lipstick.

i then put on my 4" heels and got out of the car, locking all of my male clothes in the boot (trunk for you usa sissys!)

i am not sure if anyone saw me, but i straightened my skirt, and hopped back into the drivers seat and drove off.  it was very hard driving in heels and i regretted not having some flats for driving, then to change into heels later.

it was a fun, but ultimately uneventful drive for the next 90 minutes.  i tried to make eye contact with people and other drivers, but i don't think anyone noticed.  i was hoping to get stuck in a traffic jam where a horny trucker could see my legs etc etc, but it wasn't to be.

my destination was an asda store (now owned by walmart so i think everyone know what to expect when i got there).  i drove into the car park and towards the far corner of the car park.  i parked up, and someone parked up about 2 spots away at either side!!  after waiting for them to go, i was about to get out when a landscape gardener and his mates in his little pickup drove very slowly past me, definately looking for me.  i think they must have seen me when i drove in.  they then drove up the car park a bit and parked up in a strange location (i.e. not in a marked bay) facing my car.  i panicked a little and drove to another location which was busier. (ok i know some of you will be thinking about fantasies here, me with 3 men, but it wasn't really like that)

i waited for any people to pass by, which seemed an age in a busy supermarket.  i then got out of the car and went to the boot to get my male clothes.  i think the trolley guy saw me, but he didn't do/say anything.

after getting changed back, i put my (proper) clothes back in the boot.  whilst i was getting changed the landscapers drove past again. i am sure they wanted to look at me!!

i was still in a girly buzz so i went and bought some facial wipes to remove my make-up (this was why i only wore lipstick as i couldn't remove it - but can now), some matt clear nail polish and some eyelash curlers - never had a pair so this is something new to me.

all in all an uneventful trip, but satisfying to get back in a skirt for a while.

Building site workwear

expressing my sissy side on a building site is not easy and my career choices are limited, however i have found these below....

on the building site i would love to wear this

or even clothes like these

i am sure that they would drive my co-workers wild

especially when i bring them a drink

or entertain them at lunch time

although my dream job on a building site would be the cute secretary, who dresses to please the boys, gets whistled at and then relieves the stress of the managers as and when they need it.......

i suppose there are still plenty of career options left for me....

Ok girls, how many of you have actually sissified your computer?


is what you are looking at now a mans computers or a girls computer?

you know what i mean.......

so how can you be without this

http://www.keyboardforblondes.com/

a pink keyboard
the ultimate girly accessory for your pc.

a change of mind

after a bit of deliberation, i have decided that i don't want this blog to become just another caption blog (nothing wrong with that), as i started it to relay my feelings / experiences and share some of the files i have on my computer.

i ahve been writing some captions for hte past few days, an i have enjoyed it, so i have decided to add another blog - susans captions (not a really catchy title i know), and put all of the captions in there.

i noticed that when i posted captions, my visitor numbers went up, so it is something that you like to see, but i don't want my other posts to get lost in the middle of hundreds of caps.

stealing an idea from one of my favourite blogs - my life OMG - http://tismylifeomg.blogspot.com/
i intend to add some ideas of what i would be doing / like to be doing if i was living with a man or been trained by a master.  hopefully you will like what i have to say and we can feed other ideas off each other.

my other blog is at http://susanscaptions.blogspot.com/ there will be more content as i get it posted / sorted.

i also have some pictures of myself to post, so all of those will be here.

regards
susan

my new job and this blog

i have had this blog too long to let it wither and die, and i will not be deleting it whatever happens, although blogger may delete it for me!!

i have spent the past few weeks just doing some captions, and i have enjoyed it, but i don't want this blog to become just a caption blog.  it started as a blog of my feelings, along with somewhere to post and share the sissy files i had collected.  however the next posts (several of them) will be captions.  my stats go up when i post captions, so i know they are popular, but this is my blog about me.

so i haven't disappeared totally, and please keep checking back

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well nearly 4 weeks into my new job, and i am finally beginning to settle in a little.  it has been hard up until now, especially since i haven't had time to dress or anything like that.  however work is quiet, and i am now spending more and more time on the computer at work looking at the internet.

i have also figured a way of making some time to dress, so hopefully i will get my chance in a week or so.

i have some photos of me in some new clothes so i may post them when i get time inbetween the captions


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in the meantime - enjoy the captions, i hope they are not too "samey" for you

love susan
xx

more captions

A quick update....

i am still about, but i do not have much time due to me starting a new job.

i do not have the freedom i used to have to find time to dress (or blog), but iam working on getting to know the people i work with so i can then create some time for myself.

the new office is very strict and there is no team spirit or "fun" at work.  everyone is watching their own backs.  but it does pay the bills so i will stick it out for now.

i have a few pictures to post and some captions.  i will post them when i find the time.

so its not farewell, just a small adious for now

a little shopping trip.

having been bored a little i decided i needed to buy myself some new clothes to cheer me up.  i had decided to go to a local matalan (discount) clothes store and buy a bandeau dress (never had one before) and some white lacey panties.

i had never been shopping for clothes in this store, and i was a little apprehensive, so i decided to drab down and not go in too obvious.  the store is very close to home, so i was nervous and dressed accordingly.  i went wearing some black panties and a black bra filled with my silicone breast forms.  on top of this i wore a grey hoodie.  my breasts were noticable if you looked closely.  i also wore some pink lipgloss.

the shop was fairly quiet and i went a bit mad and bought the following...

a bandeau dress

a pink sundress (this is lovely and i would highly recommend it + it was only £5)

some new thongs (in black and white)

a new "smart" skirt that goes to below the knee

and a white with black spots blouse with a small belt.  this was to match the skirt, and i look every inch the perfect secretary!!!  (sorry no picture)

i had all of these items in by basket when i joined the queue at the checkout.  there was about 5 people in front of me, and 2 behind me when i got served.  there were 3 people serving, 1 man (about 22) and two women (approx mid 30's).  you guessed it - i had the man.  i did want to have one of the women so i could ask about returns etc, but i didn't feel comfortable asking the man!! - i don't think he would get it!!

i then went and bought some new cosmetics - mascara, eye liners and foundation.

all in all a usual girly shopping trip - total cost £60 - bargain!!!!

i will post some pictures later of me wearing some of the clothes.

even more.....