my first poll

i have just added my first poll to the right hand side of this blog.  please take the time to vote as i do value your opinion.

i have been thinking about my hot new dress and i have realised that i have a bit of dilemma as to what to wear with it.

i am currently trying to arrange a meet with another man for some sissy sex, and of course i want to "blow him away" with my new dress.  so here is my dilemma.  i know that real men love to see stockings on a girl.  i do think the dress is a bit tight to wear suspenders as the clips would show, so it does have to be hold ups.

however, my sexiest shoes are some black 5.5 inch high peep toe (see previous post about 18 months ago) and some nude pumps with a 5" heel.  i also have a pair of black court shoes with a 4" heel.

now when i look at fashion models etc. wearing a similar dress, the real girls don't seem to wearing any hosiery, just some black heels (usually strappy sandals), a look that i can replicate with my peep toe heels.  i am planning on shaving my legs anyway.

however i know that men like stockings.  but do stockings go with peep toe (my thoughts are not really) but i am asking for help.

if not do i need to get some shoes to wear with stockings, or will i get away with my nude pumps or oldish black courts.

i love having sissy dilemmas!!!!!

sissygasm

Hi all,

this is just a post to reflect on a bit of an abnormal day for me.  i am not going flesh out all the whys etc. but the following did happen...

1) A sissygasm
As i have not cum since before the start of october (doing my bit for Stoptober), i have been quite horny on occasions, although not as horny as some of you may think (once you get past the few couple of weeks, not having an orgasm is not that bad).

Anyway, i digress - on the weekends so far i have been using my aneros for about 20-30 mins to see if i can cum like a girl.  on the last 3 occasions this has not worked, although it has been pleasurable.

i was reading a few tumblr blogs that have hot men in them ( i try to associated any sexual exploits with naked men if possible), as i was trying to achieve the hands-free orgasm that the aneros can provide.  however, this reading lead me onto reading about milking, and i read an article on how to milk yourself with an aneros if you were not patient enough for hte hands free version.


As i read this, it basically said grab the aneros and do the motion yourself with your hands rather than try to stimulate it with your "pussy".

i didn;t have much time so that it what i did, and after a failed attempt where i came close, i did manage an anal orgasm, or a sissygasm as i have heard it referred to (i like that phrase).  I was not hard, but spurted quite a bit of pale liquid around as my body shook and convulsed.  i did eat it all up as well if you were going to ask.

i was shaking for about 20 minutes afterwards.  having a sissygasm was fun, and i doubt it will be my last, i had just not thought of trying this.  i had tried to "hit the spot" on many occasions with my dildo and i have succeeded, but this was much easier.

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Later in the day.......

As mentioned in a previous post, i had ordered a new dress that i had carefully chosen.  i was very turned on and enjoyed the whole selection process of finding a dress.  i never get that excited thinking about mens clothes.

the above is a picture of the dress.

what i did manage to do today was try the dress on.  very quickly.

all i can say is wow, wow, wow.

it is absolutely awesome, it is made from stretchy nylon,  and the style is "sheath", but i didn't quite realise how figure hugging it would be.
it took me a few attempts to fasten the rear zipper all the way up (i hope a man can help me out of it!!), but once i had it on i was like wow, wow, wow.

it is quite tight, and as it is knee length, it is a bit restrictive, which only adds to the glamour and feel for me.  i looked at myself in it and then spun around - i was unfortunately not looking in a full length mirror, but i knew i looked good - i just felt it.

i was also physically shaking with the wow factor of the dress and how i looked and how it felt on me.  i don't think i have ever physically shook when putting on any piece of clothing until now.  this must mean i like it!!!

i can't wait until i have time to dress up properly, do my makeup and put on this dress.  i will take some photos then.

Did i mention that i like the dress??

almost busted again, but then busted (i think)

So as i am in a very girly mood, i think my girly side is leaking into my everyday life more and more.

At work i am wearing a tinmted lip balm and panties where possible. i am also looking at sissy porn on my phone (hunky men and other sissy blogs) while i have not cum in quite a while now.

So a couple of incidents happened this last week......

As my colleague was talking on the phone to the IT dept he said one of the other employees wanted an iphone.  at this point i said i did too.

The IT guy said for me to shut up and "why doesn't he just come out and stop using the wife as a smoke screen"

i blushed bright red immediately.

while they were still on the phone i went to the toilet, passing the IT dept.  i popped my head in the door and said tot he other IT guy that i wanted a fuchia iphone in a joking manner. what i didn't realise was that i was stood in t he doorway with my hands on my hips in a very unmanly pose.  This was totally natural to me and i hadn't thought anything of it until they looked at me and commented again - telling me to just go as i would not win!!!

so i was almost outed.....

until later in the day when i returned home.........

like many of you who do not have an understanding partner, i have a secret stash of my female clothes.  Until recently this has always been in the loft, but is now in the garage so i can access it easier.

However over the past 6 weeks or so i brought a few pair of panties and my chastity belt (the pink CB6000 - i will post more about chastity later) in tot he house and hid them in a set of drawers i have in "my bathroom" (i use the house bathroom, the wife uses the en-suite)

Now my bathroom does not cleaned as much as the other, but usually gets a once over every couple of weeks or so, but these drawers never get touched, hence the hiding place!!

However after wearing a pair of panties from this lot, i took them off and realised that the other items that were in the drawer with the panties (and the chastity belt which was in the drawer below) had been cleaned out and all that was left was my girly things.....

My wife has not yet commented on this, and i am not going to bring it up, but i have been busted!

Hopefully it will lead to some panties under the christmas tree......

Hi Girls,

just a quick post to say i have not disappeared from the planet or anything.  i have pretty much run out of things to say!

for the record i have done Stoptober - i gave up cumming.  it was hard to begin with, but now not so much.  it has been about 38 days or so since my last orgasm.  honestly at the moment i am not missing them, but sometimes find that if i have time alone i have nothing to do!!

however, i have ordered a new chastity device to help me out with this, and a new dress to treat myself.  this is the dress, but i am not sure it will look anything as nice on me.......




i am hoping it adds a bit of "girly girl" to soften out my masculinity (or what is left of it!!)