Thursday, December 30, 2010

Can anyone translate for me???

in a horny state yesterday, i joined the site http://www.cottaging.co.uk/

i posted a very short profile, no pics, saying that i wasn't looking for anyone, but if someone was interested in me i may be able to make a fantasy of theirs come true (school girl, maid, cheerleader etc).

so today, i had two responses.  one said "contact me".

the other said the following...

"olikeoet play ty yoad oin yormouth am roffesionalsemi rered can d datimes want to see ou dressed r u smooth bendres skirt wig etc get bak to me can youacc xx"

i understand parts of it, but you may be able to decipher better than i can.  i know *some* text speak and lingo, but not it all......

any help appreciated

happy new year to all.

Monday, December 27, 2010

skills training 11 - yielding to cock

Monday, December 20, 2010

skills training 10 - waiting under tables

Friday, December 17, 2010

skills training 9 - using her cock

Monday, December 13, 2010

skills training 8 - swallowing

Monday, December 06, 2010

skills training 7 - orgasm only when penetrated

Friday, December 03, 2010

sissy conditioning - becoming more sissy without much effort.....

I really enjoy looking at sissy training websites and reading training plans on how to change from a man into a sissy.  for example, the sissystation (http://www.sexyadulthost.com/users/sissystation/station.htm) is probably my favourite site ever, along with the house of sissify (i was a member for over 12 months until i realised that very little new material was updated).  there are also several sites who just mirror these and some even charge for the privilege!!

i have dabbled with sissy hypnosis, flash and audio files etc, but i am not currently committed to watching/listening to something everyday.

however, i have noticed that all of this conditioning is beginning to work.

it is very rare that i see a female and think i would like to shag her.  i still admire the female form and shape, i think "wow look at her arse, her legs, her chest, her waist etc", but i do not think that i would like to be her boyfriend.

i think her legs look fantastic in that skirt, them shorts are very tight fitting and show off her butt, that top is tight and i can see her lovely nipples, but i do not now think that i would like to have sex with her.


i look at porn and i see a pussy - i do not think that i would like to shove my cock in there



i see a girls face covered in cum - i do not think that i wish it was me that had done that.



i see a girl giving a blow job - i do not think that i wish she was sucking my cock.

i look at a girls butt and think "she looks great in those jeans/skirt/dress", i do not think "i would love to have that arse bouncing up and down on my cock"

i look at a girls legs and think "she has hot legs" - i do not think "i would love to have those legs wrapped around me"

i look at a girls chest and see her breasts sticking out - i do not think "i would like to suck on and play with those"

comments i have made to myself include...
that bra is pretty
that thong looks like it is from ann summers tuxedo collection
that dress is a nice colour, i like the way it hangs
them jeans are hot
she has too much make-up on

i have a feeling that the sissy way of life has a bigger grip on me than i actually thought it had.  some of this is strange.  why should i be drawn to female clothing?  why don't i think about what i would like to do to an attractive girl?

one thing i have not yet said to myself is "i wish/want to be her", but it could only be a matter of time before i subconsciously say this.

Thursday, December 02, 2010

skills training 6 - obedience

Wednesday, December 01, 2010

skills training 5 - hubbys little helper

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

its always something......

why is it that whenever i feel really horny and i am in a really girly frame of mind - i.e. i want to dress to the nines, fancy make up etc etc - something comes along to spoil my plans.

this time it is snow.  a fair bit of it.  everybody is struggling to get around, which makes it difficult for me to get around.  so no sissy stuff for me today.  just stuck at work looking at blogs etc.

ah well.....
skills training 4 - getting used to attention

Monday, November 29, 2010

skills training 3 - feminine hygiene

Friday, November 26, 2010

skills training 2 - cunnillingus

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Skills training

i don't have much to say at the moment, so i thought i would share some more of my files (not MY files, but files i have on my computer)

this set is from the same place as the feminisation essentials set.  i know they are a bit small and some people may have problem viewing them, but they are as big as i have them sorry.  hope you all enjoy.

skill training 1 - cocksucking


Monday, November 01, 2010

well, i am back after a week or so off for halloween.  we held a halloween party and so my sissy side has been in decline for a while, but seems to be back today.

before any asks, i did not dress up for the halloween party.  halloween is not very big here in the uk.  many people do not like the idea (we embrace it), and hence only 3 houses in our neighbourhood were decorated.  the party we held was a non-fancy dress party (that is what all of the guests preferred) so it was "bad enough" for me to dress as a slightly scary clown, - i wouold have looked more ridiculous dressed as tinkerbell!!!

maybe sometime in the future *dream*

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

step 21 - the complete feminised male




so there you have it, a complete feminisation guide.  i have some other stuff like this which i might post rather than having it sat on my hard drive.  haven't decided yet.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

step 20 - your wife


Monday, October 11, 2010

step 19 - Girl friends


Friday, October 08, 2010

step 18 - faithful chastity


Thursday, October 07, 2010

step 17 - your perfect playmate


Monday, October 04, 2010

step 16 - under your skirt


Wednesday, September 29, 2010

step 15 - feminine surrender


Sunday, September 26, 2010

step 14 - complete humiliation


Thursday, September 23, 2010

step 13 - trimming her ego


Tuesday, September 21, 2010

step 12 - dancing class


Monday, September 20, 2010

step 11 - the inner woman


Tuesday, September 14, 2010

step 10 - dildo domination


Monday, September 13, 2010

step 9 - pussy formation



Thursday, September 09, 2010

step 8 - giving her a better cock


Monday, September 06, 2010

a trip out to buy a bra for me!
today i have been into ann summers (uk equivalent of victoria secrets) to buy myself a new bra and panty set.

i was dressed in trousers, shirt and a tie.  i had a bag with me which had by breast forms in it.
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the idea was to go in, wit until they ask if i wanted some help, then say i have a new boyfriend who wants me to dress up and i thought it would be nice to have some new white underwear on underneath. white because it is our first time together.  i was to tell her that my other bra was too big and didn't fit me an i was hoping that she would measure me (hence carrying the breast forms)

i played it through my head several times before i went.
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it didn't quite pan out like that....
one of the shop assistants said Hi as i walked in, while the other was sorting out some racks at the back of the door.  after ages (about 3-4 mins) eventually the one by the door came over to ask if i needed some help.  she was tall, not that attractive, but not ugly either, dressed in black trousers and a simple black top.

i said i wanted a new bra
what size is she?
it may sound strange hearing this, but its for me
oh
what style do you want
like this one (pointing to the only white one - a multiway bra)
we have a couple of others similar to that (quick tour round shop showing me other multiway bras)
i would prefer white
what size
i have worn one before, but it was really big and i want one that is my size.  the last one i wore was 44DD and was very big
this range only goes up to 38D
38 should fit me don't you think?
as long as you leave these tickets on, you can always bring it back. (realisation that i am not getting measured)
i don't want anything too big, maybe a B cup (she gets out a 38B) little pause. i want some pants to go with it are these the ones (pointing to rack)
those are the panties, this is the string that matches.
i'll take the panties size 12 (get panties myself)

go and pay....

i don't think she was "into" it like the stories (maybe fantasies) that i have read elsewhere.  everything was just a business transaction, all professional etc.

me - i was bright red, but surprisingly not turned on at all.

so i have ended up with a multi way bra, (sort of like a T-shirt bra style with moulded cups and a diamante in the middle) which i have never had, so it may come in useful....???
step 7 - beautify and accessorise

Sunday, September 05, 2010

Step 6 - the female body trap

Saturday, September 04, 2010

Step 5 - Girlish Waist

Friday, September 03, 2010

Step 4 - Growing Breasts


Thursday, September 02, 2010

planning a trip part 2
i am still planning the trip, for either monday or tuesday next week.

i am not sure about Johanna's suggestion to wear a wig.  would it look more embarrasing if i was obviously a man in girls clothes, rather than a girl whho looks a bit odd??, but then again i am trying to be a girl and treated as a girl.........i am still not sure.  it will mean having to put on and style my wig in the car, which is difficult at best.

i intend to wear a nude lipstick with some clear mascara for make-up, whether or not wear a wig.
Step 3 - Female Perfection

Wednesday, September 01, 2010

Planning a trip out



i am in the process of planning a trip out en femme -ish. i am TOTALLY horny and girly at the moment and i know that this will only get worse if i do not do anything about it (i.e.dress up)



the reason i am horny is that i haven't had a orgasm in 2 weeks now, and the next time i am likely to have one is on monday (its wednesday now). i had the chance yesterday, but decided for the best of my femaleness to forego the chance (i wore my chastity belt just in case and took the keys outside so i knew i couldn't cheat).



also, after reading my new favourite blog then i decided to take just a lettuce salad to work today. i wanted to add some "special" seasoning, but since i decided not to cum, then i am eating it dry. however for later i will save and freeze my cum, so the next time i have a salad like this i can have some "special" seasoning.



anyway, i digress



my trip out is to buy me some or all of the following that are on my current "wish list".



a white bra (and if possible matching panties) to wear to work

some hair remover (i have been shaving my chest and underarms, but i would like something longer lasting)

A smart skirt and top (or dress) – something a secretary would wear. I am thinking fitted pencil skirt and white blouse or maybe a grey fitted dress.

Maybe some cosmetics (a new lipstick, lip gloss, mascara etc)

my immediate problem is what to wear
i am thinking of wearing my back zip tight fitting black trousers, a black blouse and some 4" ankle boots with a block heel.  but should i wear a wig?  wearing a wig would be an attempt to pass which i probably won't do (too many masculine habits still), but without a wig i would be a man in girls clothes - more humiliation.

if possible i will ask to try on the dress etc, but if i bottle it or don't get chance i will return it the same day.  i am hoping that the assistants will see me as a sissy and let me try on the clothes.

any comments appreciated
Step 2 - Panty His Cock

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Feminisation Essentials
the following (ok, i know they are above but surely by now you know that you should read a blog from the bottom to the top!!) are a series of photos or guides towards feminisation.

i am not sure where i got them from, but they have been laying on my hard drive and i thought i would share them with you.  they are as big as i have them.

if anyone knows where they are from can you please leave a comment and let me know, i would love to see more stuff like this.

step 1 - change his wardrobe


Monday, August 30, 2010

Perfume
having just returned from a few days away with the family, i had used up all of my aftershave etc. and i wanted to get some new stuff.  i had decided to get some some Eternity for men for when i do feel masculine (not that often), but i wanted something for everyday use.

i was really wanting to get some CK one, but then i heard about the dolce and gabbana new stuff, so after trying a sample, i picked out the girliest one of the three the saleslady said were suitable for a man (no. 6 - L amouroux).  i didn't buy it from her, but ordered it from the internet and it is that masculine that it comes with its own free vanity case....!!

whilst shoppping in Cambridge i did see som CKin2u on a super cheap deal (£15 for 100ml), i asked why it was cheap and she said it was last seasons.  so i bought it.  got it at home now and realised that it was (yes you guessed) CKin2u for her.

so rather than getting a unisex scent such as CK one, i have ended up with a bottle of ladies perfume and a bottle of eau de toilette that is supposed to be unisex, but comes with a free vanity case!!!

looks like my daily scent will be as a woman for some considerable time.

maybe the world is trying to tell me something!!!

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Fantasy / Desire No. 2
The School Girl

girls at school never dressed like this when i was at school.



i am not that into pain, most of my fetishes revolve around humiliation, but i always feel like i should be spanked when i am wearing a school girl uniform.  i am certain it is the short pleated skirt, but the long socks, plain knickers, blouse and school tie that make up the image all add to the excitement for me.

i am more a public school girl, ready to meet any boys, than a tomboy.

i actually feel excited when dressed as a schoolgirl, if i a m told to do lines or stand in a corner.  i could quite happily write out 100 times "i am a sissy schoolgirl who loves cock", and when finished my panties would be soaked and would be flushed with excitement!!!

i once was very close to arranging a meet with a man about a 2hr drive from where i live who wanted me to dress as a school girl for him.  i was super horny thinking about this and we exchanged a few emails setting out a role play situation where he would suspect that i was wearing smelly knickers.  he would then make me take them off and ask if i had been thinking about boys again and what i wanted to do with them.  he would then tell me off and make me show him what i wanted to do to boys and what i wanted boys to do to me.

i think i had an erection for about 5 days as w e exchanged emails, but alas it all went sour when he cancelled his account after we had aranged a date and i was about to book a hotel.  i think he was a little scared.  maybe it was because i had a crush on him!!! - my first school girl crush.

so if any real men are reading this (unlikely i know) then if you want a school girl who will do ANYTHING for you, leave a message and we can talk....

anyway, schoolgirls were never like this when i was at school, but i wish that i could go back and start school again as a sissy girl.


i mean - what guy would not want to have his way with a girl looking like this and giving him a peak of her panties



however i do not look like that, but i do look like the following if anyone is interested


ready for class

showing the teacher i have clean panties on....

Friday, July 09, 2010

over 10,000 views

didn't think that so many people wanted to read about little old me, but maybe i am wrong, or i have 1 obsessive stalker who had viewed my pages over and over.

either way - Yay me!!!

thanks to everyone who has looked at my pages (a special thanks to all who have commented / followed me as well).

seems like i need to post more often!

Thursday, July 08, 2010

not having much to say at the moment, i thought i would share with you all a few of my fantasies / desires, and maybe have a little mini-series of my own.....

so in no particular order of favourite....

No.1 Cheerleader

i have a fascination with cheerleaders.  i am definately a "leg" man, so seeing attractive, sporty young girls in short cheerleading skirts is obviously a good thing for me.  i also love trying to get a quick peak of their panties as they bend over or kick etc.


I love watching cheerleaders at football matches and on television shows

i own a short red cheerleading skirt (obviously), but i do not own a vest top - i should get one soon i know.

cheerleaders are so hot, i can't decide whether i want to have sex with one, or hang with them!!