At last - some relief

it was not the fact that i had an orgasm, just the fact that i managed some time in stockings that was the big relief for me i think.

i started by using my medium butt plug, held in place by my gaff. after about 5 minutes i took this out and used by large butt plug. i was careful with this and slowly let in go in bit by bit, taking my time.

i was also wearing some hold up stockings, filled out bra and my short sexy satin negligee from ann summers.

after about 10-15 minutes i felt the large butt plug "pop in" and i realised that i had managed to relax enough to take the full butt plug in (only the second time i have done this). this was not particularly comfortable as i could feel it pressing on my insides a little, but it was not painful - just filling.

i then loaded up my favourite video (the girl in the pink bedroom), placed my monitor on the floor and began to copy what she did.

my dildo got a good sucking, that made my neck ache a little as i tried to completely copy as near as possible the girl in the video

then, when it came for the time for her to remove her knickers, i took of my negligee, gaff and removed the butt plug..

after all the stretching, the dildo slid in easily to my well lubed hole.

it just felt delicious and somehow "right" as if it was meant to be there purely for giving me pleasure. as i bounced up and down on my dildo, i could feel waves of pleasure over my body and i actually moaned a couple of times as to how nice it was.

The video ends with the girl getting fucked on her back and the man driving his cock in and out quite quickly. as i copied this i believe i was hitting my prostrate continually, but i was unable to ejaculate. My arm was aching as i shoved the dildo in and out (as well as aching my arm was shaking from the feeling of been fucked) and i couldn't keep this up for too long, although i did keep it up as long as the video.

i suppose the way to look at it is as a man. the man in the video was shagging away until he came. if the girl did not come in that time, then it is tough on her (yes i know this is a sexist outlook, but many men do think this way)

now looking at it as the girl, she is left frustrated as the man came too quickly.

i would feel frustrated, however i did have what i consider a full body orgasm. i am not sure if it is possible to ejaculate, or if i want to (its not very ladylike).

anyway, i was shaking for ages afterwards, felt great and totally relaxed.

i did cum shortly afterwards, but to be honest it would not have bothered me if i didn't. when i did cum, i didn't feel an orgasm, it only added very slightly to how i was already feeling.

top and bottom of it....

1 ) i have one VERY lucky dildo

2) if you have never had a full body orgasm, then you don't know what you are missing!!

so its two and a half hours to go....

i don't think i have needed to have an orgasm as much for a long time. probably the thing that makes it so hard (pun also intended) is that non of this has been in my control. i have not tried not to have an orgasm (i.e.no self imposed chastity) it is just that i have not had the chance.

i can go longer without an orgasm, but i do want one!! and as my previous posts have said - i can't wait to have some anal action...

only two hours and twenty minutes...

Down to 6 (maybe 7) more chances for me this year.

Friday night came and went and i didn't cum. Wife still not 100% decided to stay in. i was going to shave my chest and maybe have a wank, but alas nothing.

40 hours now until my chance to be alone and meet my dildo!!

it is taking forever!!

CB-2000 - A warning

having bought a cb-2000 in order to help me with my girly training, i write the following to assist / warn others before they make any purchase on a chastity device.

as many of you may have read, generally the only time i manage to be alone and get girly is at lunchtimes - mon to wednesday althiugh it is ususally for at least a couple of hours at a time. so my thoughts were to buy a chastity device that i could put on at work, leave the key at work, go home and then tease my self silly with no release, then back to work.

i didn't want to pay too much, as i knew it was only for fun, and more as a trial. so after reading reviews, the only really bad thing said about the cb-2000 was that some men could manage to pull out. so i paid my £70 and waited....

i couldn't wait to try it on. i didn't have long, and i was very *excited* so it was a bit of trouble at first, but once i had it figured out, i had my penis locked away and put my clothes on.
the bulge was not particularly noticable, but due to the shape of the cage, was a strange shape (for a crotch area)

as i didn't have long i took the device off and waited for my chance. i was working at a relatives house doing some painting while they were on holiday. i was alone - perfect. i put the device on, got dressed again and started with the painting. it was uncomfortable at times, but nothing unbearable. you need to sit down to urinate (no problen there for me!!) or else it would go everywhere.

when i had finished painting i tried a little teasing and then i found to my horror that i could (quite easily) have an orgasm while wearing this device. if a normal wanking orgasm was rated at 100, the orgasm within the device was a 60-65. satisfying, but could be better.

i was gutted. £70 to stop me been able to orgasm and i managed it at the first attempt!

spoiler alert - highlight the following if you want to know how i managed it easily!!

i managed to get my little finger (i have small hands) partly through the cage and to the spot below the head of my penis, whhich with contstant stimulation produced an orgasm. i also tried it again once more using the handle of a toothbrush and found it very easy to do.


if you want a device that will stop you or your partner having sexual intercourse, then this will work, but it will not prevent anyone having an orgasm. be warned.

p.s. if you are the guy who bought mine off ebay, then sorry!!! - at least you havn't wasted as much money as me!!

Nothing New.........except for a purchase.

i have nothing to report except that i am extremely horny, some colleagues at work have said i looked "flushed" all day (can't see why - i am sitting at my computer reading sissy stories etc!!!), and that i need some release!!

a while ago i shaved my chest, but i didn't keep up with it, so the hairs are back (and have been for about 12 months). this will now however change. Today i have bought a babyliss male bodygroom shaver, that once charged up, i will use on my chest and underarms.

this is hopefully the first step towards becoming totally shaved. next step will be to "trim" my legs, maybe before christmas!!

hopefully i can keep up with this and become used to a girly regime of shaving and then using some scented moisturising lotion!!

As predicted

i wish i had as much luck with my lottery numbers.

as predicted, my wife is off work again today, hence no playtime for me until monday at the earliest. i am beginning to go insane, i am having urges and many impure and improper thoughts!!

One thing i have been toying with for a while is visiting a professional mistress. i have been looking around, reading reviews etc and *if* i decide to take the plunge, then i know which one it will be. She is very attractive, offers all of the services that i would require and co-incidentally she is close to my home - how close i do not knowbut i am certain it is less than a mile!!!

i am thinking about the new year for this though.

still got loads of sissy thoughts rushing through my head. i know from previous times that the first 10 days or so are the worst without an orgasm, but that doesn't help!!!

FRUSTRATION!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaargh.............

Having carefully planned my day today so i can have some time alone, it has all gone up in smoke. My wife is not feeling too good and has decided to have the day off (and most likely tomorrow as well).

This means that i cannot dress, cannot have "some time alone" and most certainly cannot suck on my dildo like i am desperate to do.

i have also worked out that as a maximum i only have 8 more times "alone" before the new year, including tomorrow!

i am now more desperate than ever (well not quite, there was once when i was more desperate - i will blog that later), but i need some relief.

the last time i was desperate i ended up joining a gay dating site!!!