recent thoughts...

some recent thoughts of mine

I was browsing in a supermarket, not looking at anything particular and I saw a dress and my first thought was that it would look good with some black tights and silver heels.

i went out drinking with a couple of friends, and the first time i have gone out in a long while.  made sure that i continued to sit to pee like the sissy i am.

i have found myself looking at mens crotches

I was sat in a conference with lots of other men and  4 other females.  There were only  5 people in the room with their legs crossed, the rest were slouching about.  bet you can't guess which "man" had his legs crossed!!

photos of shemales do not interest me, as i see myself as a sissy so i cannot see the point of looking at shemales unless i am jealous of their clothes etc.  i certainly do not get turned on by them.

it appears there is so much sissy in me it is spilling over into my (percieved) male life!!

A quick question or help?

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scallop skirt

I was at a seminar this week sat on the front row (with my legs crossed at my hands neatly on my lap) when i noticed the speaker and more to the point what she was wearing

the lawyer giving the presentation was about early 40's but very slim (she said she was a runner and quite a good one too).

But i just could not take my eyes away from her skirt.

she was wearing a black scalloped skirt similar to the one above with a flowered printed blouse. She also had a blazer jacket, so i guess this formed part of a skirt suit.

to complete the look she was wearing black tights (about 15 denier) and some ankle boots similar to above

The skirt rested just above her knee.  The scalloping on the skirt gave it a really feminine look, and i think it needed the more manly style blazer to even out the look.

i have not been on here for a while as you may have noticed, and i have not dressed for several months for various reasons, including me feeling not very girly at all.  hoever inevitably that feeling is slowly coming back and was accelerated by this simple act of jealousy over a skirt!

i know it is because of all the looking at fashion blogs that i could describe the skirt more fully and how the ensemble was put together.  i can see girl mode been activated very soon!!!!

Closing thoughts

So i have sucked a cock and had a cock in my ass.  i suppose i do now qualify for my "sissy badge"

however i do have a few closing thoughts on this.

1) the guy has been in touch several times since asking me to meet him again, and on one occasion saying that he had felt he had done something to upset me!  there is no way in the world that i will be going with him again for several reasons including a) his very small cock, b) his age and ability/stamina c) his kissing ability (yuk!) and also he never offered to pay towards the room.  i wouldn't have accepted, but i would have thought it courteous to at least offer, especially as i drove over 30 miles there and back +  spent money on lingerie etc.

2) would i do it again?  i still have the nagging bit at the back of my mind that i would like to have a man "take me" and make me feel like a woman, but at the moment i have no plans to repeat this.

3) do i feel different?  a little bit, but not much.  i smile when i think about getting on my knees or when he grabbed my hips to screw me, but then i think of his cock and how it felt in me and i am slightly put off.

4) was it fun? definitely was for him!, less so for me.  i think i could have enjoyed it, but the experience did not last long enough and he was not a good lover.

i certainly think that i was one of the best men he has ever been with, and probably the most convincing TV.  judging by his texts and emails i think he thought he would never get so lucky.  and he won't again!!!

so there you have it, i really consider myself a sissy now, as opposed to a TV.

Thanks for reading.  i will be taking a bit of a blogger break as i have some other projects i want to complete, so i don't think i will have much to post about for a few weeks.

onto the bit you are waiting for part 2

As he didn't want me to suck him off as he would ave cum I got off my knees and we kissed some more.

He then said he wanted to go to the toilet and I should put my nightie on for him.

the nightie was in the toilet so I told him to hurry up and then get on the bed

I nipped into the bathroom and removed my bra and panties that had some of his precum on them as we had gotten closer earlier.

My breasts were stuck very secure thanks to the breast form store strips, so I just pulled up the g string to hide my penis and then put the nightie on.

He was impressed as I could just about see his hard on when I went back in. I did look sexy though.

He said wow etc

i climbed onto his lap and spread my legs over his crotch. I could feel his cock near my ass so unjust moved my hips a little as I bent forward to kiss him again. He pulled me down onto him and we kissed again.  i moved my ass up and down the shaft of his cock as i kissed him.

i could feel him shuffling and moving his cock towards my ass opening. but i kept moving away, then massaging his chest.

i said you can put it in if you put a condom on, he said not yet.

so we kissed some more, then he went to the toilet again!

i was laid on my back ready for him when he came back, i tried to smile sexily and i have no idea how it came out, but he was still horny from looking at his cock!

i spread my legs and he climbed on top of me saying how beautiful i was.

as i only had a g string on , i could feel his cock on and around my ass and crotch area.

we kissed some more as he grinded into me.

he adjusted the position a little until my legs were spread wide and up over his arms towards his shoulders.  surprisingly i found this position very comfortable and i was hoping that he would take me this way.  he didn't.

he moved around a bit and i could feel (well almost feel if you know what i mean!) his cock around my ass.  i knew he wanted to just stick it in there and then, but i pulled my ass back a little and said "not without a condom".

he then said "so you want me to wear a condom then". Duh! its in my profile, been discussed etc etc.

he shuffled around a bit more, a bit more kissing then held up my legs again until my ass was in the air, sort of twirling his cock around the entrance.

eventually i was getting a bit bored to tell the truth, so i just said "are you going to fuck me or what?"

"ok" he replied letting my legs down so i could reach to the side of the bed, sit on the bed and get a condom.
he obviously wanted me to put it on for him, so i opened the packet and leant towards him.  I put the condom over the head of his cock and started to pull it down.

as he was so small the teet of the condom was almost non-existant before the rubber tightened allowing me to roll it down.  Then that is where i nearly lost it and told him what a small cock he had.  The condom was actually slack once it had passed the head!!  slack!

once i was sure i had rolled it down as far as i could (not far), i looked back up at him.  he said "get on your knees", so i did with my ass facing him and my head on the pillows.

i could feel him fumbling behind me and pulling my g-string to the side.

as mentioned, i was already lubed up so i knew that i would no problem taking him, no matter how tight i was!

i could feel his head against my opening, i leaned back a little and as quick as a flash i had lost my virginity.

i could feel his hands grab my hips and get comfortable as he moved behind me.  i could feel him tugging and pulling on my hips, but i honestly could not feel him in my ass!  i arched my back a little and then i felt something almost touch my prostrate, but not quite.  up to that point i wasn't entirely sure whether he was in me or not!

i thought i might as well get some fun out of this, so i clamped my ass muscles around his cock. and i felt him thrust about twice more before he said "ooooohhhhh, i think you got me too excited".  Is that it? i thought. I never felt him pulse, but he did stop thrusting and was breathing heavily.

the only consolation was that he did not say "it has never happened before".  at that moment my mind just related with all the women who have been disappointed that the man has not lasted very long.  he did not have his cock in me for more than 30 seconds.  I know i was dressed nice etc, but come on 30 seconds?  i would have got more out of a teenage virgin!

I could feel him let go of me and pull away.  That was it! i could hardly believe it.  No wonder he didn't want to screw me!

as he climbed off me i turned around to see him fiddling with the condom to remove it and walking to the bathroom.

i pulled my nightie back down and turned over so i was laid on my back when he returned.

after a couple of minutes he did return, said how lovely i looked and climbed onto me.  we kissed for a bit then he pulled us over and laid on his back, motioning for me to cuddle up to him. so i did.  i placed my head on his shoulder and ran my legs over his legs as i trailed my other arm around his chest.  he seemed to purr a little when i did this, and the intimacy was nice for me as well.

we had some idle chit chat as he asked how long i had been dressing etc etc.  i think i was by far the best sissy he had ever come across (or cum into!)

after a few minutes we started kissing again and i could feel his cock grow (but not that much!)

he turned me over and climbed onto me again.  i genuinely believe that he was either running out of time, or just did not have the stamina to go again, as i could feel him pressing his cock against my ass, but i wouldn't let him in without a condom

he then said he had to go, before kissing me a bit more.

i asked him if he would let me dress him, and he said ok.  so i climbed out of bed got his shorts and held them out for him.  as i pulled them up his legs i was level with his cock, so i took into my mouth again.  i thought that this would show a nice thank you for him, but he stopped me from sucking after a few seconds.
i helped him on with his trousers, then his shirt/jumper before we kissed again.

as he was about to leave he remembered that i had asked for some photos.  he took out his phone and asked if it was ok.  sure i said, trying to pose as sexily as possible.  he was more interested in the rear of me, so i posed a couple of times as directed

with a " i really want to meet you again" he started towards the door and we parted.

"Like hell" i thought, "you have too small a cock for me!!"

i then removed my make-up, got changed and went home.

totally forgetting to pick up the pair of silk stocking hold-ups at the back of the bathroom door!!!!

quick insert before the story continues...

i thought i would add this in now, so as to give some perspective to the story......

the photos he took of me in my babydoll are as follows (these are referred to in the next post)

this is a photo of my dildos (bruce - the bigger one, and roger the smaller one)

roger was bought, as stated in an earlier post, to hopefully help me hit my prostrate repeatedly.  it was chosen for the shape and style.  i can (and have on many occasions) taken the larger dildo, both in my throat and in my ass.  i can deep throat it, but not for too long.  i can ride it for a while.  i am sure you can see the size comparison, especially the girth.

they guy i was with resembled the smaller dildo, except after sucking on it to compare sizes, he was actually smaller than that in length and girth.

here is a picture of his cock.  i know it does look on the small side, but i had hoped it was the angle, but it wasn't.  in fact the angle taken was very flattering!!!.

onto the bit you are waiting for part 1

I have written this in a bit of a note format, and to be honest i can't be bothered with fleshing it all out.  i assume you get the picture...

my heart skipped a beat when he knocked at the door.  i walked over, smiled sexily and opened the door to let him in.  he looked me up and down, walked past me and then said, "hi, you look very nice, well, this is me i hope i don't look too bad"

he looked like a smaller version of Bobby Davro, slightly plumpish, unshaven and smelling of smoke despite his profile saying he didn't smoke.  he was about 5 ft 6 inches tall, which meant that (since i am about 5'7" to start with, then i was wearing 5 1/2 heels) i towered above him!  all in all not someone i would fancy.

he held his arms out with a "so what do you think" pose.  i thought what the hell, i am here, dressed and raring to go, i might as well.  so i smiled and said OK, and took a step towards him and started to kiss him.  He instantly put his arms all around me and then his mouth was all over mine.  i think he must have a really big mouth, because he just smothered me.  I could taste the smoke on his tongue as we embraced.

he had his arms around my back/waist and i had my arms around his back and it seemed to feel a little awkward until i realised that girls tend to put their arms around a mans neck.  once i had adjusted this it felt better and he pulled me even closer.

you can tell how interested i was as i remember listening to jo whiley..

his hands were soon on my ass, pulling up my dress, me pulling it down a couple of times, until i decided not to bother and let him feel away.  we were close together. not really dancing, but did have a bit of a sway.

he roughly grabbing my boobs, which was a bit of a shock, especially how hard he was feeling them.

i dropped my hand to feel his cock, stroking it through his trousers.

bit more kissing

then i unzipped his trousers, more rubbing of his cock

by now dress was around my waist, panties and suspenders / stockings on show

i was having trouble undoing his trousers, so he undid them and let them fall to the floor

feeling him up in his boxer shorts i could feel his penis, and it felt hard, but there didn't seem much of it.

he stripped off his jumper and t-shirt while i tied my hair into a ponytail to keep it out of the way.

he then walked up behind me and grabbed me, so i started grinding my panties against his boxer shorts after a bit i was turned back around for more kissing

feeling into his boxer shorts, grabbing hold of his cock and wanking him

lots more kissing, often quite rough from him - he was definitely not a good kisser.

I could feel the damp stickyness of precum on his penis on my hand

was expecting his cock to grow and grow, but that was it.  how small could it be i thought?

i could feel he wanted my dress off so i did. i took off my dress and managed to keep wig on

 i kicked off my shoes to make us more level

This is what i looked like (except with some make-up on!)

he paid me a few compliments on how good i looked etc

kissing my neck turning me on a bit and making me shiver which was nice.

i put my hands in his boxer shorts and pulled them down exposing his cock

the cut head was about the size of a small mushroom and perfectly formed, but the shaft was about as thick as my thumb and i have small hands. How long was it? i hear you ask- as it had a pronounced upwards curve i would be very generous 4 1/2 inches. and yes that is generous.

"Is that it" i thought as i kissed and wanked him off a bit, hoping it would fill with blood and grow.
more kissing and a bit of wanking and i gently felt his hands on my shoulders, i took this to mean that he wanted me on my knees.

i kissed his neck, then slowly traced my tongue and kissing down his body towards his groin, until i was on my knees facing his cock.  this was the first time i had come face to face with a cock, and it seemed even smaller when i was next to it.

i gave it a few more squeezes with my hand before i put my lips against the head and gave it a lick.  i could taste the pre-cum mixed with a bit of urine, but after a few licks the taste disappeared.  i licked up and down the shaft (which didn't take long), over the head and again on the shaft.  a few kisses on the side before i took the head into my mouth and bobbed my head on it.

i was now a cock sucker.

as it was so small i could use my tongue on the head while it was in my mouth, so i did.  i took it out of my mouth, held it in my hands again and licked kissed it a bit more.  it felt like licking a lollipop, in fact i have had bigger lollipops!

i took it back in my mouth and i thought i would swallow him.  deep throating would not be the phrase to use as it only just reached the back of my mouth!  i held it for a few seconds before i felt my gag reflex about to go so i just composed myself and sucked on it.    i felt his hands on my head so i just bobbed my head in time with the rhythm. after a few seconds he took his hands off the back of my head , which was actually a bit of a disappointment as i wanted the guidance, and having his hands there helped me concentrate on the task and they just sort of felt good!

i kept up the rhythm for a few seconds, then went a bit faster

I was bobbing my head away, often taking all of him in my mouth when he said slow down I don't want to cum yet. I had only been sucking for about 20 seconds!

to be continued......

during the day

i had booked and paid for the hotel, getting lucky as i found a discount code for £10 off.  the room cost a total of £21, which wasn't bad really.


i was excited all day for the meeting.  my nerves were causing knots in my stomach and i could hardly work with anticipation.  i was about to be a fully fledged sissy, and i wanted it badly.

The hotel was booked and paid for, the car was loaded up with all of my sissy clothes, underwear and make up that i thought i may need.


throughout the day i was checking for when my new dress had been delivered to the local store.  all day checking my phone and the tracking details on the website.  the tracking details didn't change and i had a bad feeling that i was not going to be wearing a new dress, especially as it was one that i had fallen in love with.

alas it was not meant to be.  there was no email or text message, and i even checked with the delivery point on my way to the meet.

I also thought i was not destined to get there either.  i had set off about 30 mins earlier than i had planned, but then the motorway was shut for an accident.  luckily i knew a bit of a back way and i got to the hotel at about 7.15 pm

i quickly set about getting shaved and getting dressed.

i glued my breast forms to my chest and put on my new bra and thong in lacy black/pink.

i did my make up - foundation, powder 2 shades of eye shadow, mascara and some red lipstick.

i put on  a suspender belt and stockings, making sure i could still get my thong off.  i lubed up my behind and i was going to put a medium butt plug in to help me relax, but it slid in so easy i decided against it.

my short black dress was next, followed by my wig and jewellery.

a couple of text messages to/from him and i was ready.

i knew he loved babydoll nighties, and i had bought one for the meet, so i hung it at the back of the toilet door, with a pair of hold up stockings and the matching g-string.

i was just about to put my shoes on, when i snagged my stockings (a silk pair from ann summers).  luckily i had bought a spare pair that day (as well as the hold ups) and quickly changed.

I dimmed the lights, put the condoms next to the bed and did a quick tidy up.  i was ready with about a minute to spare when there was a knock at the door.......

the email exchange 3

 monday 17th dec

 

you can go in first,get ready then text me your room number xxx

 

 That is fine i will let reception know that i am expecting you later.

What time do you think you will be able to get there? i was hoping to get there for about 7 and then get dressed etc (approx 30-40 mins)

 

got a guy coming round to fix my pc at 4-45. i will get there for 7-45/8-00. give you time to make yourself beautiful for me. i can only stop till 10ish. my number xxxx xxx

 

 That is like you - perfect!!

i hope we have time to have a dance (the girly romance bit i am looking most forward to), then plenty of time to make you happy, at least twice if possible

xxx

 darling i am not perfect, grey hair, 57 years old etc. we will have time to dance and anything else romantic you would like. laying together and just kissing and cuddling xxx

 

you are perfect to me, that i s why i agreed to marry you.

you treat me like a lady until we get into bed - then treat me like a whore. what more does a girl want?

 

 I keep reading this over and over. having a slow dance with you, sneaking a kiss here and there, you touching my bottom, me leaning on your shoulder before we undress each other and climb into bed for lots of kissing and cuddling sounds perfect to me.

i do have one other request if posible (please feel free to say no) - would it be possible for you to take a couple of pictures of me. i would like a couple of me dressed (if we can wait that long) and if possible one while i am pleasuring you with my mouth and bottom?

i am sure you know how to treat a lady...

xxxxx

the email exchange 2

Sunday 16th December

good morning lover. i have just read your last email from last night about the next time you cum it will be in me.

i am sooo honoured, i feel like i have won the jackpot, that was such a nice thing to say, i am fingering my pussy thinking about it.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 Hi lover

as you have not seen your wife in a while, she is desperate to ensure that you are happy.

she is starting to think about what she will be wearing for you, especially for the moment you walk in.

would you prefer she wears a sort of secretary look, with a white blouse and black skirt, and if so what would be your preference for the length of skirt?

i have one that goes to below the knees, and is posibly quite demure, or i do have a pleated mini-skirt?

if i hadn't been so excited about meeting you, that would have been the only options, however i have been looking at some dresses. i own a couple of dresses and you have seen the photos (black micro mini dress, and a silver dress). i have fallen in love with a dress online though.

it is a cocktail / evening dress that is floor length. i would describe it as a minidress, but with a see through bit fastened to the bottom. it has a long zip down the back. the "problem" with this dress is that i would definately need help getting out of it. and since it is reasonably glamorous, i think i would want to dance with you a little in it first before taking it off.

i obviously have not bought it yet, but they do next day delivery, so i may be able to have it by tuesday night, but not 100% certain.

can you please choose what you would prefer - cocktail dress, one of my other dresses or secretary look, but also make a choice of skirt length for the secretary look just in case.

xxxx

would like you in the little black number or if you feel inclined to buy the evening dress that would be good too. you must wear sexy underwear too. it would be a pleasure to dance with you whatever you wear xxx loads of love your husband dave xxx

  

 Hi loved one.

I couldn't resist, so i went and bought the evening dress. i am such a girl that i just had to have it.

i will not get chance to try it on until tuesday night, so i will take my little black one as well in case it doesn't fit right.

i will warn you, the little black one, is VERY little, if i reach to the ceiling you will see all of my panties (i know you obviously want this, but i would rather tease you a little). i have to keep pulling the dress down to cover most of my stocking tops (it never really covers them all)

would love to dance in the evening dress though - if it fits i am sure you will like it.

ok would love to have a slow sexy dance with you and make you feel like a sexy girl xxx 

 that is exactly what i had in mind.  a slow dance, you running your hands up and down my back, the odd kiss, until you kop a feel of my arse.  i move your hand a couple of times, but enetually let you feel me up because it feels so good been in the arms of a strong man.

"kop a feel of your arse" dont want my wife swearing did you mean your womanly bottom

sorry sir, yes i did mean touching my womanly curves, although they are there for your pleasure!
i promise i will be more ladylike in the future for you.

good its not ladylike to use bad language darling xxx

i will remember, but i cannot promise to remain calm while you are consumating our marriage. xxx

you can let yourself go in our bed susan xxx

thank you, i do hope though that you will be in charge of our love making, ensuring that you get what you want.  once i have had my little bit of romance with a slow dance, i intend to hand my body over to you.
if i am not doing anything to your satisfaction, please let me know.
xxxx

got to go now susan. you will also need a sexy nightie for our date. take care now darling xxx hubby dave

i already have a sexy nightie ready for you.

and in response to an earlier question, i will be wearing a nice dress that you will need to help me out of, but underneath i will guarentee some sexy lingerie!!

if you get chance to come back on tonight - what about the travelodge at xxxx?

xxxx

wifey susan

dont expect you to be totally sub. women have more freedom nowadays including in the bedroom. want you to tell me what you enjoy/dislike during our lovemaking

i like lots of kissing, and i will enjoy your hands all over my body

i will tell you what i like, but i suspect that you will be doing it!!!

xx

travelodge xxxx sounds good xxx

nit nite sweetheart

xxx

wifey susan

nite nite babe xxxxxxxxxxxx hubby dave

 Hi loved one, if you read this in the morning i hope you have had a good nights sleep. sorry for the long message.

now for the exciting parts - i have booked the hotel (travelodge lakeside) for tuesday night.

if you cannot make it for whatever reason, please let me know before 12 on tuesday, so i can cancel without cost.

you can message me on xxxx.

i do not have access to this site while at work, but i do have access to my email - xxxxxx

it would be nice to hear from you during the day!

as for the hotel, i do not know what your intentions are?

do you want to meet me and go in together (male mode), but you will then have to wait for me to get ready.

do you want to message me and i will come and meet you at reception while dressed up? i understand any need for privacy as we are near your home.

would it be preferable if when i checked in i got 2 keys and then left one say underneath the front wheels of my car with the room number on it - you could let yourself in then and hopefully i would be sat waiting for you.

or something else?

very excited now

xxxxx

the email exchange 1

So on with the story...

this is a copy of the emails we sent each other prior to meeting.  I am the pink one if you hadn't guessed.....

i was hoping to set a really flirty and sexy mood for when we met.

15th December 2012

 

hows my number 1 wife

 

missing my husband terribly

 

missing my bedmate too

 

since we last spoke, i have changed my hairstyle. i hope it does not put you off me. i want you ON me, not off me

xxxx (sent with pic)

 

you look gorgeous my wife

 

thanks, but i knew you would say that - you kust want to get into my knickers

 

no its important that husbands compliment their wife. getting into their knickers is a husbands right

 

only after one thing though!!

xx

 

 no not at all. wives call the shots as far as sex is involved. the praise was genuine

 

ohh thanks, you certainly know how to charm a girl - i am putty in your hands, and i would do ANYTHING you wanted....

just name it

xxxx

 

well as my wife its your duty to please me

 

i could please you by turning the Tv over to sport, or by washing your clothes and cooking for you, but is that what you want?

x

 

amongst other things yes, but being a whore in our marital bed is the priority

 

now you are talking!!

compliment me again and you will another picture!

 

as well as looking a million dollars my wife needs to act as a 20 dollar whore

 

would you pay $20 for this? (sent with pic)

 

maybe $10 whore

 

if you treat me well, the first one will be free!

 

doubt it theres always a catch with you hookers

 

you are right, if you treat me right, the first one would be free, but the second one would cost you nothing!

make me scream and the first 100 will be free

xxx

 

think your pimp wont be happy

 

you could buy out my contract?

i will pay you back in sex

 

will need to sample the goods 1st before i hand over any cash

 

i also want to know if i will like the taste

 

of what my dear???

 

of your kiss, your sweat, your cock and your cum

i want to taste them all

x

 

and i want to taste your vagina susan

 

you can, and you will!!

i know our schedules seem to be preventing us from meeting, but ithink i may be able to do something on chritmas eve morning?

 

sorry am working. am free next tuesday and wednesday evening

 

i might be able to swing something next tuesday night. is that possible?

 

yes but will have to be hotel meet

 

that would be ok by me. han hotel would give us both chance to relax a little more.

 

true. you choose the hotel then

 

could you make the travelodge at ******?

 

bit far out i am central ******

 

i don;t know many hotels around ******. i will have a look and get back to you.

goig to wish you good night now.

please think of me when you get into bed!

xxxxx

 

think wife no2 wants sex am i allowed its up to you

 

Of course you can.a man has needs and I am not there to take care of them, so I have no problem is someone else does.

I hope she treats you well, and that you will save your best for me - you will need it !

Lovely to talk to you again, missing you loads.

Xxx

 

thought it was bedtime

 

hoping you might be jealous baby

 

I am very jealous, but understand your needs.

You wouldn't get much sleep if I was with you.

 

no worries i have told her no

 

Thank you for that, I am glad you are faithful to me.

I need to reward you for that. New lingerie needed before we meet

 

yes faithful to you. lingerie pic from you???

 

Ok, go on then. A pic of me in some frilly knickers ready for you....(sent with pic)

 

they look like adult baby knickers

 

Maybe a bit, but they are just frilly slinky knickers with a rear hole.....

My only other lingerie pic on here you have seen before (sent with pic)

 

love the baby nixs

 

They wouldn't be on long though with you about

 

so true my wife very kinky

 

I will bring them along, but I have other lingerie in mind for you

 

go on wife
 

Stockings and thong underneath my dress.

Maybe change into a baby doll later

 

you tease. check for a hotel my wife

 

I will, but I am having too much fun teasing you.

Is your cock hard yet?

Xx

 

you know it is my bitch

 

I would have my red lips around it before you got it out of your pants

 

you are a slut susan

 

More compliments will only make me more horny for you

 

think you will need a wedding dress too. another pic please

 

My dream wedding would be followed by all yours dreams coming true later that night!

Last photo and post tonight.

Xxxxx

Missing you. Whisper my name when you next cum....

Xx (sent with pic)

 

when i next cum it will be in you my darling. you are my true wife now

Teaser Trailor

Hi everyone

In the tradition of the hollywod blockbusters, this is just a teaser trailer to the next few posts on this blog. I still have the fantasy story I was working on, but I think you may enjoy reading about what happened in my real life instead.

There were be several posts, and i will try to add some suitable pictures, so it may take a week or so to post them all.

It could be a bit long and rambly, but i hope to be able to write about it an an interesting and (possibly) amusing way.  The adventure does have a couple of little twists and turns.  I do hope that at some stage you have a smile on your face!

Anyway, as promised to give you a clue - it rhymes with "I cooked a sock."

sissy dictionary

sorting through some old files and i found these two listed under dicktionary!!!

they are from a previous set of training information that can be found earlier on the blog

the quality of the picture isn't great, but is readable.

i just love this image.  i have just had some hot sex with my boyfriend. so while i let him sleep a little i  just put on my bra and panties and go make myself a cup of coffee.  i know that he will want some more sex when he wakes up, so i want to be ready for him.

if only i looked like that

new dress for christmas

As you may know i have been shopping mad lately.  since i last wrote i have bought at least 12 pairs of panties (everyday panties for work etc) and some bits of make-up.

however today, for the first time ever i was seduced by an advert on the internet.  you know when an advert appears at the side of your email or a webpage etc.  i usually ignore them, but today in a sissy state i could not resist.

The advert was for "Very", a clothes catalogue in the UK, and the piece was a long dress.  i just fell in love with it.  i checked the sizings and if the sizes are correct it should fit me like a glove (or dress!)

i thought about it for a while, before finally i could wait no more.

i think it is quite sexy, but quite demure / glamourous as well.

i have bought it with a special occasion in mind, but the news about that will have to wait....

why am i a sissy? (part 2)

Please see part one of this to be able to follow what i am talking about!

Post wife
About 6 months after meeting the wife, i managed to get a computer and get on the internet.  this was obviously a wide passage into sissydom, and i quickly found myself masturbating while reading sissy assignments, joining sissy training sites and even following a programme that replicated a period.

me and the wife did have sex through this, but before she moved into my house i insisted that i had 2 weeks on my own.  this time ws spent with shaved legs and lots of lingerie as you can imagine.

the training websites pushed my resolve and i went out in public again in the daytime in a miniskirt and heels, and i also bought a dildo that i have sucked and used in another orifice!!

since we have been married we do not / have not had much sex.  i am not very good at it, and i don't get any practice!  when the wife was pregnant we didn't have sex until 3 months after my son was born, and to date it is at least 11 months since we had sex.  i think the wife has used her hand to "relieve my frustrations" on about 2 occasions though.

as my life as gone on, i have joined cottaging / gay cruising sites and attempted to meet men (without success), had sex with my dildo on a webcam for a man, and been to a london nightclub dressed.  i also now find myself trawling through sissy websites on a daily basis.

I have been buying myself more panties and clothes, wearing them whenever i get chance.

I am practicing my makeup skills whenever i can.

For long journeys at work i am wearing a skirt and wig etc



as i said in my first post, does the series of events that is my life indicate a sissy in the making, born to be a sissy, or an unlucky man who has become a sissy?

whichever it is, i do LOVE wearing skirts and heels!!!

xxxxx

why am i a sissy? (part 1)

Why am I a sissy?

after reading the excellent guys who wish they were girls blog (http://girlieboystevie.blogspot.co.uk/)  it got me thinking a little about how or why i had become a sissy.  i have looked back at my life and i now ask you if the following series of events etc sounds like someone who has just stumbled on been a sissy, or someone who was destined to be a sissy.

i have split this over two posts as there are two distinct categories - one before i met my wife and the other afterwards.  the reasons will become clear as you read.

Pre Wife (from the age 0-28)

I was a popular boy in school up to the age of 13 when i left my usual school and attended a boy only school until i passed my a-levels at over 19 years old.  (note - nothing sexual happened at school in case you was wondering)  my confidence took a beating there though.

i was dressing in female clothes (my mothers) before i had ever masturbated.

The first time i ever masturbated was when i was 17 while watching miami vice (but not dressed), and i almost didn't know what was happening and i just laid on my bed using my thumb and finger as i had seen people call each other.  the second time that i had an orgasm i was wearing some of my mothers underwear and a black skirt.

i actually own more bras than i have had female lovers

As a teenager i went out fully dressed as a girl before I slept with a girl or even touched a boob

Used a vibrator before touching a girl

Used make up regularly before been with a girl

used to wear panties, tights and a bra etc to university beneath my male clothes. (i lived at home while at University)

i am not sure about the actual timings, but i don't think i ever kissed a girl while i was in university.

Bought female clothes before been with a girl

Bought various items of female underwear before been with a girl

Visited a tv shop several times before been with a girl

Had a wig fitting before been with a girl

bought various shape garments including padded panties, waist clinchers and silicone breast forms before been with a girl

used cock shaped objects in my mouth and pussy

Bought books and magazines for tv and sissy

i did not lose my virginity until i was 25

not including the wife i have slept with 4 women, including 1 prostitute on holiday

i only ever had sex with the women once. and never saw them again for various reasons (1st was unbalanced, 2nd never wanted to see me again after my failure in bed, 3rd i was not attracted to her (beer goggles on), 4th prostitute)  my wife is the only woman i have had sex with more than once.



i think the most telling ones are that i was masturbating at a young age in womens clothes, i went out dressed a as woman before touching a woman, and the fact that none of my girlfriends had sex with me more than once.  been at an all boys school through my teens didn't help.

looking back though, i can't believe that i went out dressed in a skirt etc before i had even got close to a woman!