Monday 1st August 2011
its 10.00pm and i have checked my email every 20 minutes throughout the day. feeling down again, maybe i pushed my boyfriend too far. i offered to do almost anything with him, as long as it was safe, but maybe he has had second thoughts. i am sure i am not too fat, maybe i am too old. i really did think he could be the one.
why don't men ever respond, are they afraid to say no thanks?
however, whilst i was checking my messages on cottaging, another man has got in touch. i thought this would be some harmless flirting, so i thought "what the heck" and we flirted for a while. he wants me to dress as a schoolgirl who has failed a test and needs to get some extra marks from the teacher. i am loving talking to him, our messages are quite sexy. he is dead keen to meet me, i think he must be thinking with his "other brain" again.
my new admirer was quite insistant throughout the day. i have told him that i can't meet him this week, because i have another appointment (boyfriend) although he hasn't been in touch :(
whilst waiting for my boyfriend, i am getting nervous about kissing him, what should i do with my hands? i know what to do with my hands when i was predending to be a guy, but now i am a girl, what should i do? maybe i should look this up.